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I recently moved out and move on.
I was sharing an apartment with old roomates for  two years. We were good friends before I moved in that apartment. We helped each other everything, we played together even went out to party. One thing, I did really wanna be her best friend and it seemed to be I was the one who could just only be her best friend that time. She was very nice, cute and fashionable girl who really wanted to improved how I dressed and all. I opened my mind and replace her to be my best friend.
We started hanging out and went out to many parties. I helped her but she rarely helped me. I was ok with all those that why she knew what she wanted. Time went by and she stared to using me by never bought anything in the apartment. I worked less money but I was only one who has to pay all crabs. More than that, whoever I went out for dates. She really wanted me bring her. Some guy didnt like her to be the part of dating. She started to convince me not to hang out with that one.
Until I met one guy who seemed very nice and gentle. He seemed so spoil and have done many thing. I bought her on our second date. I introduce her to him and we went to party together. I didnt know what going on that time. She liked to go on my date with this guys more often. I opened my mind and said " Alright my guy seemed so cool and accepted who I brought to my date night. I was ok with it.
Two years later, worse thing happened between me and her. Second thought came up that she might not me real friend. She needed just advantage from people who can give her what she wanted. I have been giving her everything she asked, stuff, money and shits.
I was uncomfortable, unsafe, unlucky and unhappy to be her friend anymore. Bad things came up. She cheated on her live-in boyfriend. She was a lair. She cursed. She used drug. She was manipulate. She used me to get money from my rent.
I decided to move out from that place. I did get a new place. I was happy that time. I stop being friend with her. I cut her out of my life I never wanted to be friend with her again ever.
Later a few day, I heard from my guy who I used to date. He told me. She was a liar. She lied to him to marry him. She made love with him long time since I was dating with him and she pretened to be innocent. She used me to go out eat for free, get free drink and having someone pay her bill and take her shopping. She changed herself from head to toes. She knew what I feel for this guy, she step on my back for 2 years, she married him get his money, house and convinced him to get a nicer car. They saw each other whenever I was at work. Sometimes they met at my apartment while her bf wasnt there or no one there and *uck. This is mess up. She made up stories all the time. She is a lair. Im so glad I cut her out before things get worse. This is just only 20% I have told bad stories about her what she did.
Now I knew I move on and need to have my wonderful life.
Hope what comes around goes around.
Hope God listen to me.
Hope she gets her lesson soon.
She will feel how bad is it.
She steal her best friend guy.
Talked behind everybody back.
Step on my back.
Do drugs.
No work for living.
Use people around for living.
Control freak.
Whore.
well, Im praying for her whatever she wont do anything bad to people around her.
Lets me be the last one who she used .

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This is what I wanna say.
Sometimes you can not just stay only one place but you need to move on to another level that is all for what a good reason in the future. I dont blaME anybody who dont wanna leave your situation. If you think an opposit way. You can leave someone or something behind with all the good reason and memories. Comparison between a lot of stories in my life that I have been thru. I believe in the same that keep my mind being positive, then a good thing will come up. If I can pass such a tough day it means I can tell anybody about that in the future. I like to look back and taught myself that nothing wasnt easy to pass if i have faith and belief.
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I just turn 29th before yesterday.

Hello guys

It has been so long I havent wrote anything on here. I mean I have been busy w/ working and school. Seemed like my life is getting better by the way. I am happy w/ the day I have alived by God is standing near me, all the thing he controls and lets them happened to me. But I havent have any chance to go to Church yet. I commited myself with Thai Church in Arlington, VA but I dont have my own transportation and seemed so bad if I have to let anyone comes and pick me up all the time. Well, my class is going good so far, but again for last class I didnt do it well plus I was absence a lot.

 

I just turn 29th before yesterday, every year reminded me about my parents, they always had a party for me even when the time we didnt have money. They still had something for me. This was the 4th cerebration for me in USA. I didnt cerebrate as a big party, I do have some close friends came and say" Happy Birthday" that made me happier than I was.

 

I tried to think the first year after I moved to USA, the family who I lived with she was very nice and had a surprise Bday for me. She arraged the theme for the party and stuff, and looked so cute when everyone needed to wear the stuff she had for us plus everybody got soem gift from the party that I never done that before.

 

The Second year was happened in IL, I lived with the family in IL, the host mom she invited her family's side and host dad family's side to me Bday at one nice restuarant. I had a good time with them and the kids plus snow was falling a little bit. I remembered how nice they were to me. And I wish I could go visit them sometime. They gave me an Ipod Nano for the Bday.They liked music like me..Bad part of the party was I have no friend over to come over just the family who I thought they were my friends in life.  Well, I am very happy everytime when I talked about the old stuff!

 

The third year was happened in VA after I moved back to VA for school and looked for a new job downhere. I arranged my party by myself beside two new friends. A whole brunh of friends came over to the party. We got drunk, danced and ate a lot. I had fun.

 

This year I wont forgot one friend who never forgot me and help me all the time. Even tho I dont get a lot of present especially from the family that I work for. I dont need it. I need that how can I live and do a good thing for myself, my family and people around that's all.

 

Now Im happy and try to be happy all the time when the problem happened. I try to be positive and Im not gonna ask God too much why this thing happened to me again.

 

Thanks for reading my blog...

 

God bless.

 
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My day was so so

Today is Wednsday, i wish i could go out after finish working. But still have to work till late. Well, seemed like I have a plan tonight with someone. Finally no one called me. They all did bullshit to me. Thats sad.

 

I called my parents today, they are doin fine, my sister is gettin big and she just turns 10 last month. And another sister, she is in love with some thai guy and they help myparents business so far so good. i wish i could help them have a small wedding party and i wish i could go their. My cousin just got baby boy last two months. And people in my famiy is gettin old and have been changing by job, life, love and health. I do miss my family so muh and wish i could be there real soon after I have been here more than 3 yrs.

 

I have some confusing feeling in my mind about who I love and who I want to spend time with. I care of one guy who is always be te part of my thinkin no matter I do or what he does. We keep in touch and try to do thing together, get to know each other more and more..Seemed like I got scared how he feel and I feel. I feel very happyto be with him. I want him to be happy but he couldnt force himself to be happy as he tried to be. His eyes are still having the sorrow sign everytime I looked at him. I want to help him as much as he can from his past and try to make him happy..I hope time would help and be with him. I wish my goodness would get through to him. I dont expec aything from him.

But myfriends didnt like him at all coz he is disorganize, moody, sensitive and unhappy........He lets thingin the past kill him and dont even want to move on as I try to let him do that just for himself....

I feel like crab....I feel like Im no one in his life...that he wasnt appreciated me in some other time.

He mostly didnt pay for me when we go out, he did at the first mment we have met..And I do know and understand he has bill to pay....But it didnt matter to me.

 

Another guy came to me after him for a while. He is older than me and mature,, He has a stable job and rich. He takes care of me always when we went out..I would never pay or anything...I dont know what I should say like now but as I know....I need to choose one of them. Yeah absolutely, my friends like this guys a lot and seemed like I will be happier to be with than other one....

 

 

I am so sick of ife likethis....

 

I need time to think and think what i gonna do for the future ...what is best for me!

 

 

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I have been so sick...

This season, people got A flu...Im waiting for a swine flu shot. I hope I dont get a cold from anybody else. Well, honestly I got sick from my PMS.It made me crazy and pain for 2 weeks. I knew it is abnormal. I dont know what to do, just keep hoping it will be gone away soon.. I got better since yestrday, but today still pain on my tummy. I knew what the problem, I got drug infection fom using the birth control pill which my friend sale them to me, she got it from Thailand. I was so dump to doin that. Shit. my body hurt. I havent gone to m class for a whole week. I was so depress with all emotion and stuff!!! Don worry Im fine now..

Yeah in the same time, my best friend got swine flu! First few day, she didnt know she got it.She wassck so bad. We tried to figure it out where, when and hy she got it....We were at the Thai temple and she got free food. Or we went to see a movie which had a lot of people in the theather...Well, I was so scare to get a swine flu from her. Plus I was so sick an thught too much about myself.....

My school didnt provide insurance for student, no one want it and the company didnt want to deal with school anymore..That why I dont have insurance,. I scared to death if I have to pay a lot of money for hospital..Im looking for it now....

 

 

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