Hello You guys

I am so sorry that I have not update my blog for a while. Right now I got a job already and also everything is going alright. Unfortunately!! something is really bad happen to me again and again. I seemed so upset with all situation. I couldnt force myself to be emotion about all things I got. I tried to relax and get some more rest but I couldnt get it through. I am also think about my life in the future. So, I have to move on anyway. I guess my love is so wonderful but sometimes it can kill me with no doubt. I have to be careful all the love I gave to anyone. That was all important. So, next time, I should not give all of my heart to anyone. Just protec myself from get hurt and stuff like that.

Today I went to the church, God said to the people that " You should have faith, hope and thankful in your life." God will be put everythings you pray by the name of Him. I wait for my praying. I prayed and kept saying thatnk you to him all the time with all situation. I also wanted my man comes back. The reason he did , it didnt make any sense. I pray for him and hope God will cure him. God lets me know today after church that he kept calling his sister and talked about the trouble he got with me. He seemed not want to listen at all, but I also hope that one part of his brain would regonize and realize all thing he has done with me. Wording, feeling, and loving that he used to give and take care of me.. I hope he might return his sister call in a couple day. He is in an out patient program at some hospital. He got a mental problem that why I do forgive and wait for him all the time. Some of my friend blames me that I should nt wait for this man. He might not make me happy a whole of my life. He might not seeem to be a good couple in the future. I also didnt listen to them . When you love someone, you wil understand that how hard a situation you deal with.. How hard when everything settle down and break down in the same day.

So, I am not emotional right now but  talk with my brain and hope. I hope and pray for him and my life forever.

Kitty