Long long time ago that I have not gone to the church on Sunday!! While I was working, I had to work on Sunday. Even tho, when I had a plenty of time on my weekend off, I always went to another place such as the mall or thr friend's home. During this time, the sad and hopeful feeling come through again. I have to find a shelter to protect myself from the illness, depressed and hopeless. I would tell you guys that my hope will be with me again no matter what! I willing to have my own life by my big decision. I guess, everything will work out. So, today, I went back to the church again. I went there at my first time here in this state. I met a lot of people. I was the one who came from Asia continent. All of them were so nice. They are looking forward to see me again next week. I promised myself to go back there again with my hope and joy. I shared a lot of my experiences with them. Even tho, my heart gets hurt every single word I explained to them. I do not want my life failed like this!! Some of them offered his or her help about finding a job. Like I said, I can do everything that they need me to work for. I do not mind at all. Just oonly really want the job. If I can not find the job here, I do not really know what should i do next!

God gave me strength this morning by my hopefulness. I know that God never leave me alone, I will get through this situation. Let see next week what is gona be? I can not wait until someone gives me a call and tell me that " You might get a job."

One thing that I can do right now is praying so hard!!! ( I will)

" Thank you everything that God let them happened to my life! A bad or good situations were my best and experiences. I will not blame anyone else or myself about that. Just calm down and hope for tomorrow..I have to walk pass the darkness day by day and take more time". Amen